| V-Day |
[Feb. 14th, 2006|11:28 pm] |
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[Jan. 31st, 2006|11:07 pm] |
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| | Crystal Method - Magic Carpet Ride | ] |
Today was long but good.
Tommorow is going to be long and probably bad cause we get truck in in the evening so I'll have to work that crap.
I really should be reading but my book is in my car and I dont feel like wakeing my parents up to get it cause they already think I should be asleap.
This is kind-of an interesting place to be. If nothing else, it's completely new.
I sort-of feel like starting over, but I dont want to leave this behind.
I wonder how long it will last.
<3 starbucks: it's so much more than it seems. You just dont want to accept that.
Wow, it's hard to stop.
Make a wish. (I dare you) |
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| (no subject) |
[Jan. 16th, 2006|01:29 am] |
[advice on makeing it such would be greatly appreciated] |
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[Jan. 15th, 2006|11:55 pm] |
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| |  discontent | ] |
| [ | music |
| | song: turn back time | ] |
Today was interesting
Justin allmost got sevearly beaten several times
Pappy is a hell of a good friend to him
It's sad, my dog and cat are getting old
sushi at asain city is not that great
he's luckey I didn't have another or I would have strangeled him
I'm tempted to make this friends only. It's not like I would loose anything.
Sometimes I wonder if I'm really not completely insane |
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| I'm not really going to post this |
[Jan. 15th, 2006|12:06 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | pissed about being depressed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | The KIllers | ] |
"And it comes to be That the soothing light at the end of your tunnel Is just a freight train coming your way"
Hmm, so, yesterday I went to the talent show again. This time for free (entered at the top). Justin was supposed to come (I called him but he never answered). He never did show up. Most of the acts weren't as good as the first time. It ended when the fire alarm went off. Then I went home for a bit. Then back out to starbucks for most of the rest of the night.
Up until this point the option hasen't even existed but, now that it does, I'm not shure if I really want it.
To care by not
To love by not
"I'm so tired but I can't sleep, standing on the edge of something much too deep, funny how you feel so much but can not say a word, We are screaming inside but can't be heard."
a lie is easy to say but hard to mean and even harder to beleave.
It's gone back from being too much to not enough. |
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| a lack of benefits |
[Jan. 8th, 2006|01:51 am] |
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| | mozart | ] |
New Icon
What if we just knew first names and phone numbers
Does the rest of it really help any
I dont think I really understand
I dont know anyone even remotely like you
No, you're wrong, It's all trash
Maby it can turn out well,
I doubt it though
If you haven't allready noticed I dont really have anything to post
Today was long, but short
You should deffinatly watch Tarnation
http://www.wellspring.com/movies/movie.html?movie_id=56
I should be asleep
It's just not enough any more
it was
and it was wonderful
but now it isn't
I kind of want to go but I dont think that I can at this point
I wonder how much since these post's will make in a few days, weeks, months or years.
It just seems like the wrong way to approach it
i'm sorry
it's fucking january
No you aren't, not even a little
If I only explained
what are you thinking right now?
U>
when a lack of progression actualy means a digression |
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| Tired of Being Treated Third Rate |
[Jan. 1st, 2006|09:50 am] |
yesterday was interesting
I woke up around 11 at eric's house, chilled for a little bit, and went home. @ home I ate some random foods, took a shower, and went to starbucks(atascacita[f*spelling]), got some stuff, went back to eric's and just waited a while before people came for pat's birthday party. Pat's party wasn't that interesting, just food and stuff, not a whole lot of people eather. We then left to go get swim suits so we could get in the hot tub. At the time I seem to have been the only person with an alternate adgenda(to pick up justin an hang out with them at starbucks for a little bit). Oh well, what ever, shit didn't work out completely right and I ended up in bryans car with eric and pat. We had to pick up justin and drop pat of at another party(center stage). We still did it though but it wasn't nearly as good as it could have been without the extras. Then we all ended up at Erics execpt for pat. And everyone but pat went to the fireworks stand to shoot off fireworks. We tried calling pat and telling him to meet us there but we couldn't get ahold of him because he never answered his phone. [point fingers why don't you, it's not like we don't allready know]. We had new years at the fireworks place. Then we went back to erics for pat who we found outside because he didn't have a key. We all went inside and changed into our swimsuits and went and got in the hot tub. I ended up haveing a bit too much water to drink and had to call it a night a little before everyone else but I havent talked to them yet so I'm not shure how much earlier.[my hands are cold]. It was interesting. I have work today from twelve to five thirty. It sucks because after I go home this morning I wont see pat for a couple months. We have school on tuesday, that sucks, I'll probably see you before then though. O, I broke my new years resolution within minuts (allmost seconds). |
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[Dec. 28th, 2005|01:38 am] |
I think I have a cold or something similar and it's realy freeking annoying.
am I an asshole for giving a shit?
when do we go back to school?
just about ten or fifteen more pounds would be perfect
when do you know that it is too much?
where do you draw the line?
I understand and even though I might not love it, it's nice that it is clear.
I dont want much
take what comes
what happens?
match back is best, too bad it's impossable
I've no clue why I'm at this point, just that I am.
It seems rathar late to just now be truely realizing it. I wonder how long it will take to put into practice.
it's going to be a difficult new year to make a resolution.
It's eather here or there so take your pick
what do you want for your birthday?
I understand that you won't but it is no longer meant for you |
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| Merry Christmas |
[Dec. 25th, 2005|12:05 pm] |
In Austin for Christmas
back to H Town tommorow afternoon
work Monday: 7-3 or similar
Friday: sometime I dont remember
We have got to come up with some stuff to do that is not just starbucks. |
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[Dec. 15th, 2005|11:40 pm] |
Guess who got accepted to Texas State for the fall semester of 06???
On tuesday I went with dga to the old folks home in town center to give the residents some shitty christmas cards from our and other classes. It was interesting to say the least. Personaly I don't dislike old people, if anything I feel sorry for them. They're just so old that they can't even take care of themselves any more. Most of the residents that we met there were verry nice and said that they liked the card they got. We went room to room to give the cards out and this one lady who was obviously like a manager or something there lead us around. She really got on my nerves though because of the way that she treated the residents. Elderly people often loose some of their hearing but this woman treated them all as if they had lost atleast most of it. She used baby talk to many of them and even some who obviously didn't need it. It just seemed blatently rude to do that to them, no matter what age they were. She kind of seemed to have this addatude that the residents were just there to live out the last days of their lives. Some of the other staff seemed to treat them with similar addatudes. Some of the residents might have needed it, but deffinatly not all of them.
My favorite line from the trip is:
"I used to be a psycologest but now I dont have any brain"
(or something verry similar) |
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[Dec. 12th, 2005|10:00 pm] |
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To be at the top of the world, your world, for even a second is strangly
satasfying in a verry empty sort of way. You can see the best that it could
be and how infinitly far from it you are.
There's more to it than that.
There is, and allways has been.
The wall's been painted over,
but the color still bleeds through;
like pens on paper do.
never, as in ever
Why start there? why stop?
To have to rely on something, anything, as a cure rathar than a treatment to get you through social interactions is completely unacceptable.
Like good and evil, you must balance pleasures and pains or both will loose meaning and effect.
6 days
think of something |
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[Dec. 11th, 2005|12:54 am] |
It's been a while,
I turn 18 in 7 days
I'm looking for good ideas for something to do to celebrate
I kindof want a digital camera but I think that they are too expencive or too low of quality to be worth it
Right now my christmas list is:
Car
IPod
Hard Drives
Money
If you have any good ideas or want to post your XMas list, please do so
I want to apologize for some of my recent bitchyness
it's all wrong but it's all-right |
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[Nov. 23rd, 2005|12:31 am] |
Tobacco is a powerful toxin!! Smoking destroys cells that clean your trachea, bronchi, and lungs. Smoking causes emphysema and chronic bronchitis, which progress to slow suffocation. The carbon monoxide from cigarette smoking causes chronic carbon monoxide poisoning. Tobacco use damages the arteries in your body, causing insufficient blood supply to the brain, heart, and vital organs. Cigarette smoking increases the risk of cancer 50 fold.
Chewing tobacco or snuff is no safe haven. It also damages your arteries, and it carries the same cancer risk. (Cancers of the head and neck are particularly vicious, disfiguring, and deadly).
Poisoning the body with carbon monoxide, and causing the physical illnesses of emphysema, chronic bronchitis, cancer, and arterial damage, tobacco is a powerful source of added stress to one's life. |
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[Nov. 20th, 2005|12:19 am] |
-WORK SCHEDULE-
sunday
7 - 3:30
monday
2 - 7:30
tuesday
2 - 7:30
wednesday
0
thursday
0
friday
1:30 - 10
saturday
10:30 - 7
for a total of 37 hours |
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[Nov. 18th, 2005|11:49 pm] |
What happened to common courtosy and respect for other human beings? It absolutely blows my mind that people can be rude and disrespectful when people have done nothing to personaly wrong them.
So, here's how it goes:
I'm trying to leave the starbucks parking lot which, of course, is pretty much completely blocked in Again. So, I'm looking for a simple way out, something easy so that I won't have to get out of my car. Finally I realize that I'm going to have to take something down so I stop my car and prepare to kick the shit out of a barrier. I'm walking up and this fucking rent'a'cop pulls up and is like, "Hey! what do you think that you are doing? There are places to get out at!". I'm like "Where? It's completely blocked off." and he's all like "Well, if you would just use your head there's a place over there to your left and there to your right."
I've had a shitty enough day allready.
Fuck the police.
-It's too deep for drugs-
Burning Man
Europe
Calafornia
Skiing
Sky Diveing
Japan
(ranked by order) |
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[Nov. 17th, 2005|09:19 pm] |
How was your day?
Mine was allright other than being completely uneventful and acting like a jack ass all day.
It looks like it might be too cold to go tubeing in san marcus on saturday. I dunno, talk to me about it.
I really wish I could just be wrong about everything. If only everything could just be what it isn't for a little while.
everything may as well be made out of paper.
Eather god is not all-powerful and perfect or he is a complete douche. |
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[Nov. 13th, 2005|02:48 am] |
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Today was incredably awsome and relatively shitty.
Everything seems to have lost deapth. It all seems so shallow and bleak.
buzzkill
everything lacks order and at the same time it is repetitive, it is also all illogical and irrational.
did you hear the news?
what's your favorite color?
why?
shoot low enough and you'll end up shooting yourself in the foot.
Today I woke up at like, 10ish, went back to sleep for a half hour, got up, gathered my junk up, went home, food, shower maby, bryan's, flea market, car toys, best buy, tweeters, home, work, home, food, party, home, computer. |
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[Nov. 8th, 2005|12:06 am] |
Tonight I went and saw Depeche Mode. They're awsome!
I keep ending up in places that I never expected to be and not allways just physicaly. |
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[Nov. 5th, 2005|12:06 am] |
was it just a dream or did I really screw up relations that badly? I can't tell. Reality fades in and out almost unnotisably.
i'm tired. |
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